Tuesday, January 3, 2012

A few small repairs



Speed has never been a talent I have possessed.  My top pace, physically, is a jog at best. Apparently my speed in spiritual growth rivals that of my running.  The important thing, (I keep reminding myself,) is that I am making progress, and even slow progress is progress none the less.

I am learning a valuable lesson - and this is where the lack of speed is really making itself known - about how I treat the people I love.  Evidently, I fancy myself as a handyman, a repair technician, a "fixer."  Those of you who know me might be asking if this is truly something I am just now discovering.  Yes, thus the  emphasis in the first paragraph of my lack of swiftness.

It has been my natural propensity to step in when I see someone hurting, struggling, questioning  . . .  I have thought it was just a way for me to give love and support, to show up as a friend.  What I am learning is that my inclination to "fix" things in the lives of those I love has been a burden to them and a hindrance in our relationships.  My intentions, however good, do not make it acceptable.  

By stepping in to offer solutions or alleviate pain, I have sent a message that the people I love are inadequate on their own.  I have added anguish to an existing problem.  These are results I never intended.  So, I am working now on seeing the challenges my loved ones face as great opportunities for their growth and discovery and my listening and compassion.  I can give love without giving solutions.  I am grateful to be learning, finally, that I am not only slow, but I am a poor excuse for a Maytag man.  I am going to stick with love and compassion and leave my toolbox in the garage.

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