I am realizing how important it has been for me to be "understood." I have this intense desire to set the record straight when someone misinterprets what I do or say. I want to explain myself to people, even strangers, so that they can know my intentions and understand where I am coming from. Two goals that have been priorities in my life and that are impossible to ever obtain. I cannot control how others view me, my actions or my words. Wow! That bears repeating . . . I cannot control how others view me, my actions or my words.
A deep sigh of relief followed by a sudden sense of panic and anxiety. I think that means I have a long way to go before I can fully let go of this one. Luckily, I am also discovering that gratitude and compassion are the way out of the trap of needing to be understood.
This lesson has been presenting itself over and over recently. I think the Universe is encouraging me to finally get this one! Anyway, the first thing that I learned is important is to get clear with what my intentions truly are. Once I am clear, it is helpful to take an honest look at whether or not my words and actions have been aligned with my intentions. When they are not, I get to take an uncomfortable inspection of my motives and truth. Either way, it is beneficial to step back and see how what I did or said can be interpreted differently than I intended. At that point, I can step into compassion - compassion for myself and my "come from," and compassion for the person I wish to explain myself to.
I am focusing on being clear with myself and allowing others to have their experience of me, my words and my actions without trying to manipulate or control it. I am grateful to be learning this lesson. Do you understand where I'm coming from?
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